Realization

I can be a morning person if I want to be! (:

This is definitely going to be a working process, but I am determined. Hooray!

Disregard New Blog

So I have the "brilliant" idea to create a blog for my poems, but honestly, I will post to ones worth while here. Instead though, I AM going to create a bucket-list blog. The contents will be a list of things I want to do before I die, and if I happen to complete one, I will give you a detailed post about my experience.

Yep, sounds like a plan, so be looking for that one!

(:
-Brittany R

Don't Kill It Before It's Begun

So many times we have a set idea about something or someone and we rarely go into a situation with an open mind. Although it is nice, and smart, to use discernment, having and open mind(without compromising your standards) allows you to see the best in things.

I am honestly completely guilty of waking up and dooming the day, with my words, before it has even started! This is something I am actually going to work on--a lot. Because I am tired of having bad days just because I feel like it should be a bad day!

Example: last night before I went to bed, I told one of my friends that this was going to be a rough day for me, but because I woke up all cheery and positive, today has been completely wonderful. (:

So this rant is encouraging you to make the best of a day, situation, person, etc. Be all that you can be, and make your surroundings the best they possibly can. (:

New Blog

Enjoy poetry?

ME TOO!

I created a new blog where I will be posting most of my rythmic rhymes. I would encourage you to check it out and let me know what you think. (:

http://herrythmicbeatingheart.blogspot.com

Cliche Talk About Orajel

So recently I have been having problems with a sore inside of my mouth, and today I finally broke down and used some Orajel so that I could actually talk without pain. Little did I know, even though Orajel took away one problem, it created another--drool.

Just like that pesky Orajel, we can fix and create a problem just as easy. There are times when our words can comfort and soothe an ache in life(whether it be yours or a friend's), but if your actions don't follow up, it can create a mess. As cliche as this term is, "Actions speak louder than words."

Surrender to the Wave

The lyrics that are going to appear in this blog are from a song called Whatever You're Doing by Sanctus Real, and even though this song has hit me hard before, last night just really set in.


"It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender"

I don't know if you have ever been to the beach during high-tide, but it can be a really scary thing to experience. I myself already have a fear of the ocean, so having waves several feet above my head does not exactly hold the most comforting of thoughts! For those of you who have never had the chance to experience high-tide, or any tide for that matter, I will go into more detail.

When a wave is swelling, it pulls back a large amount of water toward where it is deepest (away from you). The pull of the wave is so strong that it doesn't just take water with it, but shells, fish, rocks, sand, and sometimes you to an extent. But as strong as this pull is, it doesn't last for long. Before too much time has passed, it comes rushing back at you all at once, this being the reason that during high-tide, the wave is well over your head. When you are in a situation like that, you know that there is no swimming through it or around it, but the best decision is just to surrender to the wave.

Aside from the ocean, our lives all have high-tides at some point. It is that time when you feel like everything is at its most raw point and when you feel so vulnerable to the world. And we know, it isn't before long and everything comes rushing back at us at once, (the shells, fish, rocks, sand, and water). We can choose to try and fight life and everything it is throwing at us, or, we can choose to surrender to the Wave(God).

I would encourage you to listen to the song, you may get something really awesome out of it, like I did!

Cha cha cha changes!

Yesterday was my, "reminisce on the past" day. Not in the bad, "doomy" type way that you are thinking, but in a good way! I pulled out old pictures, music, emails, letters, the whole sha-bang, and I realized something:
Yes, I realize that it is expected after a few years, but I never really noticed how much I have grown up. I never really saw how much more wise I am now compared to when I was fourteen. Don't get me wrong though, I know I have A LOT more wisdom to obtain, but I am better now than I was then!

I guess right now, I am the happiest I have ever been that things changed a lot a few years ago. I always looked at situations that went down as a downfall or stumbling block to me, but little did I know that it would help make me exactly who I am right now. Yes, I will still have my mopey days where the things that happened are grabbing me at the throat, but honestly, that is expected! It was never expected of me to feel this good about times that hurt me though, ever!

And now that I sound like I have completely lost my sanity, I would say it is time for this little post to end. However, I encourage you to share with me what you think about this subject of change. Has this ever happened in your life? Are you in the middle of a change? Fill me in. (:

Due to the title of this post, I just had to attach this video:



Haha! (:

Just sayin'.

I cannot wait for the day that I spend cold, rainy mornings at home snuggled around a hot cup of tea or coffee with my husband right beside me. I cannot help but see us as a trendy little couple living in a tasteful, over-crowded apartment. I cannot express the joy I feel when I picture things like our quaint, little kitchen in which creative, unusual foods will be prepared. I cannot imagine a life without him to look forward to. <3

New Step Forward

I realized something tonight(techinically last night): I care.

I guess I got so use to not attaching myself to people that I figured it would be easy to get up and walk whenever the time came to move into the next season of my life. However, after tonight, I realized that, that next season will be one of the hardest transitions yet. I actually care about my friends here; they are not just the people I give that title to, to be nice. I sincerely feel comfortable around them, and better yet, I feel loved.

So, to all of my awesome buds, you rock hard core, and thanks for being exactly what I needed right now. Love you guys!

Miss You Papa.

Five years ago today, I got the news that my grandpa had passed away. As much of an emotional mess I was then, it still effects me to talk about him. Today has been, interesting. I am not going to ignore this day, because he really did mean a lot to me, but I am looking at it differently for the first time. It isn't that he left me, or that I am without him, but more that he is with God and our memories mean more than ever.

Love you Papa, and today is for you. <3

Friendship

The people who can influence you come from all different walks of life, and even though it is likely that I will lose touch with most of the friends I have now, I am hoping against it. I have some pretty awesome friends that are pretty awesomely different. I mean yea, my best friends rock hard core, but they couldn't be alike if they wanted too, which is probably a good thing!

Katrina and I were talking last night, and I realized how much my best friends really mean to me. I am not always known as the person who jumps into trusting people, but these friends I really do trust. The cool thing is though, they all have certain things that I feel comfortable talking to them about, and all of our conversations are different from one another.

Oh uniqueness. (:

So even though I know that only one of my friends even checks in on my blogs, I love you guys. <3

One Measure At A Time

So lately I have been feeling a lack of energy to do anything. It is almost like my desire and passion for things have been drained right from me. I was struggling quite a bit this last week, but after talking to my previous youth pastor's wife, I had a new outlook on things.

One of the things I completely lost my desire for was music, and if you know me, you know that music is something I usually completely adore. I guess it had just gotten to the point where it looked like my goals in music were just so far away that there was not even a use in trying. Beside that, I was having a hard time seeing anything in my future. So many people have told me that they can see a calling and anointing on my life, but lately, it has been hard to even accept that.

Good news time!

Last week after talking to Meghan, I decided that I was just going to chill and give it to God until I felt like it was time to do something again. Well, Sunday I just felt like it was time to try again, so I found sheet music for a song, printed two pages of it, and put it on my piano. Now I know some people are going to read this and be like, "why just two pages?", and that is because it is easier for me to complete something if I am not looking at how far I have to go. It is called taking one step at a time, or in this case, one measure at a time!

If anyone is curious, the song I am learning is Boston, by Augustana (slow version because it is prettier. haha). It isn't the most difficult song ever, but that is exactly what I need, something refreshing. Check out the video below to hear the song. (:

Let Love in, I dare you.

Sometimes I absolutely despise being a sixteen-year-old girl, and now is one of those times. To begin with, everything seems to be more dramatic than intended, no matter what, sadly. Even though it is somewhat laughable, it gets annoying just knowing that I am inevitably stuck as a teenager for the next 3 years 3 months.

The most common topic of girls my age is, of course, boys. I have a different look on this whole dating game, I guess you could say, but it is still hard not to think about what could have been. I have made the choice not to jump into a relationship with every guy I am attracted to. I figure that if God has my husband hand picked, then why do I need to screw up my heart by throwing it at random guys, even if they are adorable. The tough part is this lonely part of me that I know I should be filling with God but don't know how. I just miss waking up and knowing for a fact that someone loves me, other than my family.

*click*

Okay, wow, this would be why I love blogging so much.

Love, love, love, love, what is the meaning of love? The dictionary gives 28 definitions for the word love, but only one really caught my eye. Number 12: "the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God." Someone was on the right track when they put that in the dictionary!

Aside from that, the Bible helps me understand love in many ways, many of which I am still trying to figure out! 1 John 4:16 says, "And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him." Hmm, just in case you didn't get it already, I made it bold for you. "God is love." Here I am trying to find love, when Love has been waiting for me to reach out for him.

I could easily allow this hole inside of me to grow with bitterness and loneliness, or, I could let Love in. I don't know about you, but I going to let Love have its way in my heart. Not only will I give him my heart, but I am trusting him to shape me and my heart for my future husband, as I know he is doing the same with him.

Let Love in, I dare you.

-Brittany Rose

Determined.

I am determined to jump back on the blog train. I use to blog almost daily, but completely forgetting about here. However I am at a place where what I wish to say and express only gets people crazily scratching down my throat. Oh boy, expect a lot.

-Brittany Rose