More about light switches.

If you are a dedicated reader, you have already read my last post about light switches, "I trip and fall for no good reason at all". If so, you know that I spoke about how I tend to go through life tripping and running into things when all I have to do is go to the light. With the help of the Light, things tend to be a little bit easier, not to mention less painful. Now that you know that history, I can continue on. 


I guess you guys say that P.Joe, my youth pastor, has a way with saying things that stick with me for a while. This time the light switch isn't just about you as a person tripping and falling, but about everyone around your running into things getting hurt as well. We live in a dark world where millions of people are in pain; if we were to strop and listen we would hear the cries of the people around us--it would be like hearing screams in the pitched black. What and eerie thought, but such a true one. 


Before I get ahead of myself I better take a step back. Everyone has a choice, has the ability to make a difference and become a revolution (quick shift in power). Some people believe they can change the world, while others believe that "world-changing" is impossible. Whether you believe you can change the world or not, you can make a change--even if it is just in your family or friends.


I already see minds spinning while I say this so I will go a little deeper. Whether you know it or not, the way you live your life effects those in a direct, or indirect, ripple effect around you. For example, if we are all in a pitched, black room and I turn on a flashlight, I am not the only who is going to be able to see something. With the help of my flashlight, anyone around me will be able to see better than they could before. 


I am a person who struggles with self-worth quite frequently, so hearing this message really made me think. Sometimes it is easy to believe that what I do doesn't matter in the long run; needless to say, I was proved wrong. We all have a place in this world, all made unique, unique to our Father. We all also have opportunities to shine our light, His light, to help other people out.


So readers, will you continue to sit in the dark with the screams of those around you, or will you decide to let your light shine? 

PS: Thanks to P.Joe for his awesome wisdom.

Quick Update

I am really looking forward to P.Joe's new series called Spiritual Issues. I know it is going to be a tough one for me to hear when he starts out by saying, "You deserve to have peace and joy." Oh boy. I am guessing that I will have some interesting posts for the next few weeks, but until then you will have to bare with me not knowing how to express how I have been feeling recently.

Hopefully soon I will get out of this feeling of being "off". It is driving me insane. I know that it probably has a lot to do with the recent shift of events with my friends, but it makes it no easier. I am ready to be back to me. Blagh.

Please be patient with me. :D

I trip and fall for no good reason at all.

"Never be afraid of what lurks in the dark....just turn on the light." -P.Joe

I am guilty of stumbling through the dark in order to find my way to my destination instead of simpling turning on the light. I mean this embarrassing confession in both the literal sense as well as the metaphorical.

For those who know me well tend to notice that I keep to myself on what is going on inside my brain. There are not many people I spill my guts to, and for the most part, that is okay. I have always been that person to figure things out without someone having to tell me what to do. However, the problem with that is that I have to force myself to ask for help when I need it. I become so accustomed to people coming to me with what is going on in their life, that I forget that I have to right to ask for help as well.

In the same way, when I get overwhelmed, I tend to just freak out on the inside instead of just going to the one person who knows everything that is going on. I know that all I will have to do to calm down is turn on some worship music, pray, and listen; yet I dance around the solution and stumble through my semi-depression spells. That I must say, is no fun at all, yet I do the same thing almost every time.

So here I am telling everyone that I am going to do my best to stop tripping and falling in the dark, and just rely on the Light--that's why it is there to begin with right? (:

This message still has my mind going crazy...

Wednesday was an interesting day. After being completely over-whelmed emotionally, and having an over-crowded mind, I sat through a message that I am thinking will change my life forever; it is titled Gender Identity(correct me if I am wrong P.Joe).

The question that was posed at the beginning was, "What does it mean to be a man or woman?". Automatically my brain is trying to race for an answer, when I realized, I had no clue. The world has come up with this distorted idea of what it means to be a man or woman.

Most every child grows up with an unrealistic idea about what perfection is in a person. For example, Barbie and G.I. Joe. Little did we all know that if either of these "icons" were really living, they would be so unattractive and un-proportioned that they would not even be able to function as normal people.

There is that lie that no matter what, we will never look good enough. The world will say that the way we look will NEVER be okay. These unrealistic heights are set in our minds and we will drive ourselves crazy trying to reach them.

I personally have struggled with "Well, when I look like this I will be happy." "When I look this way, I will believe it when someone calls me beautiful." (Please, no one leave a comment concerning this, because I didn't write it for someone to say something.) So I was in this mindset, and then of course, P. Joe pulled the following scripture:

Genesis 1:27
"So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them."

bum...Bum...BUUUMM...

Great, I have heard/read this scripture SO many times but never really thought about it. This scripture is saying that every part of me, whether I like it or not, was made in the image of God. That means that when I look down on me, I look down on Him--oh boy.

Okay, so now I know you are waiting on the answer to the question previously stated. "What does it mean to be a man or woman?" The truth is, it is being able to recognize the image of God in you. That means, it is looking past you and seeing what really matters, the God in us.

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Also, the crazy part of this is that Tuesday night when I was praying, God told me the following: "Breath easy my child. I have created you the way you are for great purpose and reason. Do not try and change what I have made. You look at things like they are difficult, but you are looking at you, not Me. Breathe easy my child." Isn't that just ironic!