Optimistic VS Pessimistic

As many of you know, I write quite a bit of poetry and little sayings. I have done this for a long time, and today I decided to look back at things I had written last year. Boy oh boy, some of my stuff was really deep, but others were just plain out depressing. I can honestly say that I don't even remember being as "down in the muck" as I am reading about. I mean, evidently I was, in order for me to write some of the things I did, but it is like two completely different people now. I am happy to say that I am more-so an optimist instead of a pessimist these days. (:

Since I spent forever going through all of those writings, I thought I might as well share one with you guys.

"I can picture myself dancing at Your feet, but why is it, here out of my dreams, all I seem to do is trip and fall?" This is completely true sometimes.

Cha cha cha changes!

Yesterday was my, "reminisce on the past" day. Not in the bad, "doomy" type way that you are thinking, but in a good way! I pulled out old pictures, music, emails, letters, the whole sha-bang, and I realized something:
Yes, I realize that it is expected after a few years, but I never really noticed how much I have grown up. I never really saw how much more wise I am now compared to when I was fourteen. Don't get me wrong though, I know I have A LOT more wisdom to obtain, but I am better now than I was then!

I guess right now, I am the happiest I have ever been that things changed a lot a few years ago. I always looked at situations that went down as a downfall or stumbling block to me, but little did I know that it would help make me exactly who I am right now. Yes, I will still have my mopey days where the things that happened are grabbing me at the throat, but honestly, that is expected! It was never expected of me to feel this good about times that hurt me though, ever!

And now that I sound like I have completely lost my sanity, I would say it is time for this little post to end. However, I encourage you to share with me what you think about this subject of change. Has this ever happened in your life? Are you in the middle of a change? Fill me in. (:

Due to the title of this post, I just had to attach this video:



Haha! (:

Miss You Papa.

Five years ago today, I got the news that my grandpa had passed away. As much of an emotional mess I was then, it still effects me to talk about him. Today has been, interesting. I am not going to ignore this day, because he really did mean a lot to me, but I am looking at it differently for the first time. It isn't that he left me, or that I am without him, but more that he is with God and our memories mean more than ever.

Love you Papa, and today is for you. <3