Sometimes I absolutely despise being a sixteen-year-old girl, and now is one of those times. To begin with, everything seems to be more dramatic than intended, no matter what, sadly. Even though it is somewhat laughable, it gets annoying just knowing that I am inevitably stuck as a teenager for the next 3 years 3 months.
The most common topic of girls my age is, of course, boys. I have a different look on this whole dating game, I guess you could say, but it is still hard not to think about what could have been. I have made the choice not to jump into a relationship with every guy I am attracted to. I figure that if God has my husband hand picked, then why do I need to screw up my heart by throwing it at random guys, even if they are adorable. The tough part is this lonely part of me that I know I should be filling with God but don't know how. I just miss waking up and knowing for a fact that someone loves me, other than my family.
Okay, wow, this would be why I love blogging so much.
Love, love, love, love, what is the meaning of love? The dictionary gives 28 definitions for the word love, but only one really caught my eye. Number 12: "the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God." Someone was on the right track when they put that in the dictionary!
Aside from that, the Bible helps me understand love in many ways, many of which I am still trying to figure out! 1 John 4:16 says, "And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him." Hmm, just in case you didn't get it already, I made it bold for you. "God is love." Here I am trying to find love, when Love has been waiting for me to reach out for him.
I could easily allow this hole inside of me to grow with bitterness and loneliness, or, I could let Love in. I don't know about you, but I going to let Love have its way in my heart. Not only will I give him my heart, but I am trusting him to shape me and my heart for my future husband, as I know he is doing the same with him.
Let Love in, I dare you.